Birthday Reflections and the Need to Go

It's the day before my 35th birthday. I'm laying in the bed, waiting on my children to wake so they can open their Thankful Gift Day presents. The house is quite except for the sound of the electric fireplace humming across the room. I'm reflecting on my life and I'm not sure how to feel about this birthday yet. I mean of course I'm thankful to have survived another year and I remain in awe at the many great, no, amazingly spectacular things that have happened in my life and the amazing people that have both entered and exited my life. However, as I approach this birthday I feel an urgency deep within that I am being forced to answer to. I fear this urgency maybe rising from all the terrible stuff that has happened in 2015 as well. And I don't want the bad manifesting anything in my life. This urgency is telling me to go, to run and flee, don't look back just keep moving. If I listen to that whisper in my ear a lot of people may end up hurt or disappointed including my children and I most certainly can't have that. So I'm going to flip it on its head. I'm going to listen to the side that is still saying 'go' but is telling me to take the chance, live the dream, pursue your happiness, and do you! 

I find myself already complying with the urge to go. I certainly have the 'go' part down. I just booked yet another trip for the kids and I for June. We will spend two weeks visiting three countries (more details on that to come). This after we visit two countries in April (after our two month cross country road trip of course) and not to mention the one country we will journey to tomorrow. That is six countries planned for this year (my year goes birthday to birthday lol) and that is not even counting the adult only trips I'm toying with in the back of my mind. Whew! It's going to be a whirlwind of excitement, anxiety, wonder and amazement, fear, goal conquering, and I'm sure sometimes stress. I'm up for this challenge though. I'm up for the challenge of pursuing my dreams, making memories, and learning more about myself and my children as people. I'm up for the challenge of fulfilling obligations, such as writing this dissertation as I globe-trot, and continuing to give my kids the best homeschool education that I can but doing it from around the world. 

I truly appreciate you, who is reading this, being on this journey with me too. I appreciate you taking time out of your day to spend time with me here, to follow this journey right along with me. I know I'm not alone in this and that gives me comfort. 

So until I talk with you again or see you somewhere around the world... Love, Peace, and many Blessings!